aliclark

I really wanna quit today but what if sears never calls and then I’m fucked well I think I should just give my two weeks anyways and then just say fuck it. I don’t know what to do. I just want some guidance or something, someone to tell me what they think I should do. Fuck. I really should just quit, I hate that job anyways so I mean even if sears never calls I can always just be like fuck and find a new job.

Probably being scammed which means I won’t be moving… Fuck I have no luck.

Last day before I get to see richard. Long drive to ottawa tomorrow morning. And then 3 days with my baby. I’m so beyond excited. I miss him sooo much and cannot wait to spend some time with him. I’m gonna have a really hard time leaving him again.. I’m gonna wish I could stay there forever.. Its gonna be real tough, but I need to try and stay positive. Because I’ll see him soon enough. It won’t be very long until I do. Nobody ever told me this long distance thing was like this. I mean I knew it was hard cause a lot of people don’t trust. I trust richard. Its not that I’m worried about that. I just miss him so much it physically hurts me sometimes. Well I better go now. Work in like an hour and then I get to come home clean, pack, and sleep. Then off to ottawa. Byee.

so i love him. jussayyin.

Drunk.. Fml. Lol some people are dicks and treat me like shit and make the me the bad guy. I’m not. js.

So its curtis’ birthdayyyy!! Bar tonightttt wooooo.

So I’m up and about to start getting ready for work again. Yesterday was so slow.. Hopefully today its a little busier and I can kick some ass! that’s my plan at least. I’ve decided I’m gonna have to kill it the next couple shifts. And I guess we’ll see how that goes. I’m going to try. So yea. Anyways its tuesday so I work today and two more days then weekend off and its curtis’ birthdayyy! Bartime? Yes please! Its gonna be a riot for sure. However I’m just now realizing. If chris n rick are bringing sara and some jess girl then where are they going to sleep? I was under the impression they were staying @ michelles but there won’t be enough room for them all and no I will not give up my bed for anyone! I called it and its totally mine no matter what. Too bad. I’m not being a bitch I’m just not sleeping on the couch. Bottom line. I feel like maybe they should’ve asked, cause like its curtis’ birthday an yea maybe this girl wanted to see the bay but I mean this trip was for curtis and they’re just bringing random people? I dunno I feel like that’s a bit stupid but whatever not my business. I’ve got somewhere to stay so I don’t care. Anyways I’m gonna go get ready for work now, maybe I’ll throw down some more rants later. Who knows.

So It took me forever to get to sleep because I was thinking of him again!! Wtf. And then he’s in my dream, I get shot, and I don’t know wtf that’s about. And now I’m sitting here and what’s on my mind? Wouldn’t ya fuckin know it, he is. Wow I need some serious therapy at this point. I’m retarded!! Jussayin. Ps I’m just now realizing that this blog has turned into a total bitch place for me, so I hope you enjoy hearing about the downs in my life. Hopefully soon ill post something that’s good eh? Ahh here’s hoping.

She’s not broken, she’s just a baybayyyy. Lol stuuuuuck in my heaaad! Fml

Its snowstorming out which is awesome…not I’m gonna be late for work.. I don’t care @ this point. I’m tired and I hate mornings and wouldn’t ya know it.. My life. Sweet. Anyways, ya tried talking to rick, didn’t fix shit.. So basically that’s not gonna happen, and that’s great.. Ugh. Whatever. I’m destined to be miserable I suppose. Shower time now. I love showers!